Time Doesn't Carve Itself Out

I don't have much to say because I haven't done a lot of work on my personal brand. I started this blog to give a real time, real life description of my journey to freelancing. So the real story is - you have to make time to do this shiz and it doesn't come easiy.

I am working on a logo for the wife of a guy I work with. They are friends of mine, but I want to be more specific because I don't know that they would have asked me to do this without the work connection. I think friends at work have a better understanding of what I do and think of me when they come accross their own design problems. I don't think my friend from church or neighbor would ask me for help as quickly. (I will write a reflection on this logo creation in a month, once it is done.)

Like I said, I don't have a lot to say. However realizing how quickly time is passing definitely motivates me!

Who runs the world?

When I was young I always thought the woman's fight for equality was a battle mostly fought by my mother's generation (and those previous). I thought the only fights left to be had were salary differences. The only time I experienced gender inequality was in gym class, and if I'm being honest, I really couldn't catch so the boys were pretty justified in not passing to me. But this past year has, unfortunately, taught me that's not true.

At work, when you act like ‘one of the boys’, they call you abrasive and difficult. So, if you act like a woman, they say you’re emotional and difficult. So, difficult is really just the word for anything that isn’t a man.
— I Don't Know How She Does It

That quote might be from a movie, but if the shoe fits... because this is totally how I feel! I'm a pretty blunt person, when there's a problem I want to address it right away, but when I do I get "handled". It's a tone that just says, "Woman, I will not deal with your emotional state because I know you cannot think clearly during it." Excuse me, I am upset, but I can discuss this properly, it's that tone that will make me go a little nutty.

At the end of the day I think about my best friend, who is bold in everything that she does and always has been. She is unapologetically herself and I think she knows who she is better for it. I have to be me too, and I want those around me, personally and professionally, to know exactly who that is too.

Creatitivity is Intelligence Having Fun

I came across this quote while looking for art work on Etsy and it really fit my mood. Sometimes I feel like the low man on the totem pole because I'm not a developer, and sometimes I can really beat myself of for not understanding code. (I kind of refuse to accept that I can't do everything I put my mind to.) This little quote is a great reminder that I am uisng my brain, I just get to do pretty things with it.

creativity is intelligence having fun

I shot this picture to use for my friend's wedding invitation and program. It was a fun way to stretch my skills and a wonderful excuse to buy flowers. Two things that don't happen in an office job.

Stepping Stones

Last week I was organizing old documents and backing up finished projects when I came across this.

At work we had been trying to come up with a safe icon and these were two ideas I had produced. Neither were used, we ended up using a padlock from Font Awesome (which is a super handy tool for incorporating icons in your website), but I was happy to see them again. They reminded me that I am being creative in my job, even if the creations aren't being used. It's easy to focus on the negative and be weighed down by it, but growth will come from using projects like these as stepping stones. At least that's what I'm counting on.